I am a chatter. So, naturally my mind was racing a million miles a minute wanting to share all I have learned in the past couple years. I wanted to encourage you all in so many ways...but I was at a loss for words. How do I narrow it down? What topic will resonate with them the most?
And then the oh-so-fun thought, “what will they think of me?” And then I knew.
I have spent the better part of my life held captive by this question. This question screamed so loudly that it drowned out any confidence I had. It led me to alter my actions, pursue perfection, and present myself in such a way that I thought would be desirable and worth loving. I quieted my quirky self, I became obsessed with working out, I jumped on any fad diet there was, I did everything I could to graduate with straight A’s, and from the outside I’m sure I had a convincing act. I became a fitness instructor in addition to graduating with Summa Cumme Laude in Mechanical Engineering. (Currently pursuing my Masters in Mechanical Engineering.) I was surrounded by community, and strong in my faith. But what people didn’t see was the girl who stood in front of the mirror every night, slowly becoming unrecognizable, replacing my passions with those of others. Convinced that I still wasn’t enough, seeking out the approval of others. “Do better, be better...be different.”
I share this not to brag about my accomplishments, but rather to truly demonstrate the lie of an image. As an Instagram influencer, I want you to know that Instagram, social media, and sadly, life itself, is becoming a highlight reel. This world wants you to believe that you fall short. That you are not enough.
It took hard work to realize that that voice was not my own. That voice was the world and it is a pro at deception. By consistently taking my thoughts captive, being honest and confessing where I was really at, and reminding myself of truth, I slowly and gradually started to rediscover who I was...who I am. It is a choice. And I chose to love the REAL ME radically for all she is today, as she is.
I’m a mix of tea and coffee. I want a nut butter bar at my wedding. I love green smoothies and HIIT classes. I love naps and triple chocolate molten lava cakes. I don’t have abs or toned legs and I still struggle with body image some days. I love singing and songwriting. I love painting and crafting! I love sunrises and slow mornings. I could spend the rest of my life having heart-to-heart one-on-one conversations. I’ll always pick a book over Netflix. Most days I don’t want to study, I hate doing laundry, and my room is a mess. I’m a morning and a night person (1-6pm is simply not my prime). I love taking walks. I love cuddling, and words of affirmation is my love language. I love loving others wholeheartedly, unconditionally, radically...but for too long, I forgot to love myself.
So I challenge you to drown out the world for a moment, and I invite you to start telling yourself you are enough. Start adopting a positive mentality. Choose to say “I love you” in the mirror. Fall in love with that person. Real, raw, unfiltered. Your truest self. I strongly believe you have been crafted and sculpted by a Master Creator. You are a work of art. So live loud. Live loved. Love to live. And live to love. This doesn’t mean you will never be tempted to believe a lie about yourself again. I can just say from my experience, it gradually gets easier to fight off those thoughts by saying, “hey world, I’m choosing to be unapologetically myself. This is me, the REAL me. She is more than enough.”
(Above Image from Ophelie's Instragram!)
Thanks again, Ophelie! And thank you sweet readers who continue to show up and support us!